Today is our 5th anniversary. Has it been that long already? The toddler sticking her fingers into the wedding cake I am making in celebration is a pretty clear indicator of “yes”. Where did the time go? And then I look at what we have come through, the near misses that could have ended the relationship and the powering through, doing the work to not make those words we spoke to each other on that beach 5 years ago null and void.
Two memories I hold on to: how happy and at peace I was on our wedding day and C helping me shower after my C-section (the most painful shower of my life). The first memory holds all the promise of a new life together and how there was no fear or doubt in my mind that I was with the best person for me, that we had the skills to work through anything. The second memory is confirmation of the first. C held me and bathed me during my most vulnerable time when I was sleep-deprived, in pain, and barely able to stand after a day in ICU with residents, nurses, and doctors checking my vitals every hour. He held me up, washed and dressed me, and tucked me back into bed. And he stayed with me and Em the entire 4-day stay.
So, today is a day of gratitude even if we won’t officially celebrate until tomorrow. Today is a day to remember how my life changed for the better, through joys and trial, 5 years ago.